Not feeling it

I'm not sure that I want kids, but I wish I was sure about my decision now. If I was absolutely certain that I didn't want kids I would have a hysterectomy. Being a woman comes with its disadvantages, really painful, irritatingly consistent ones. I'm not going to lie and preach the whole "being a woman is a blessing" bs. Who are we kidding? Women are just being good sports. Sometimes I think life would have been much easier for me had I been born male. Who ever rolled the dice in the game of my life really f*cked up.